Hi, today I will be journaling on a number of topics and attempt to tie that into decoloniality, nondual animism, and daoist cosmology. YMMV.
Remember: I am not an AI robot man who over-promises salvation to “fans” or “consumers”.
Story State Action articles
https://thenightgarden.substack.com/p/story-state-action
First, a bit about my context — i am a chronically ill person and am a few months away from homelessness unless i figure out a better way to make money inside of this ableist hellscape of capitalism. Illness, as well as all pain, fear and hunger, are nondual wisdom teachers under the umbrella of death — hence, all things are deathpractice.
To understand deathpractice in its entirety, one must learn nondual dream practice which i teach in my patreon but you can also find your own way there.
This journaling is also an organizing method prior to divination (yijing divination). It helps me to organize my 5 senses, thoughts and feelings to better arrive at a suitable divining platform.
Having a chronic illness, with all of its symptoms like chronic fatigue, makes ambition difficult because ambition itself (yang) depletes resources (yin). In many ways all of my choices of survival in my history (45 years) tore holes out of me from which my future spilled. This is what karma-fate is.
Privilege is a shorthanded way to say, “this person’s karma-fate is suitable for the environment they exist in.”
Disadvantaged or disabled people is shorthand to say, “this person’s karma fate is not suitable for the environment they exist in.”
These distinctions are of course, based on the dualistic/privileged cosmology.
The former learns dualism & materialism - that is to say, life teaches them about material advancement, the “linear path to progress” and the western/dominant model of reality. This is about form (yin, space) and the movement of form (yang, time) via the generative cycle of time. It is a step-by-step evolutionary/developmental model of reality. Also known as the Chemical or Chemistry model.
The latter learns some form of embodied nonduality, or “the backwards/crooked path”, the return of the shen (plurally as the 5 organ spirits and singularly as the heart spirit) to the formless. This is sometimes called alchemy or alchemical model, as opposed to chemistry which is the previous model.
Different karma-fates, as determined by a number of factors including daoist natal astrology, predispose a person towards one path or the other. Not by conscious choice mind you. There are of course many variances and complexities in this situation, I am just trying to mark out a basic cosmology here.
Generally speaking, Yang dominant constitution people are the linear path, and Yin dominant constitution people are the non-linear path.
Society as it currently exists, ruled by hetero-patriarchal oligarchs in a slave labor economy for the last 12,000 years out of our more than 300,000-year history as a species, is ruled by and thus shaped by yang dominant constitution people and their predisposed tendency towards dualism, materialism, and linearism, which creates downstream conditions such as colonialism, imperialism, cartesianism, etc.
As you may have guessed, my constitution, even though I am a biological male, is primarily yin dominant. Especially as I get older (all older people become more yin as they age).
Yin dominant people have qualities such as increased sensitivity to environmental factors (including feng shui, nutrition, etc), increased responsiveness, increased empathy, etc.
Yang dominant people have increased In-sensitivity, increased Un-responsiveness.
Constitution dominance effects all downstream phenomena (perception in the forms of the 5 senses, thoughts & feelings — and baseline States - per my Story, State, Action model).
So, that’s a brief yet pretty comprehensive context of the View that I am speaking & writing from.
and remember, yang dominant people (especially the younger they are), absolutely hate on and shit on my entire body of work. This is why many yang dominant people hate socialism, hate the poor, hate the disabled, hate women, etc.
Story As Values
Being a highly sensitive person (not in the way new age wellness influencers think about it though) requires a tremendous amount of strategy. Not only must one know how to avoid or defend from becoming overwhelmed, but one must also know how to recover from constantly being overwhelmed or on the edge of overwhelm in a society that is absolutely aiming to eradicate us completely.
This isn’t hyperbole, this is the medical ideology and lineage of the western model: “Only the strong are worthy of citizenship.”
In order to “slip through the cracks” of a genocidal yang deranged system, I continually update my Story (Narrative, Values, thoughts), so that I can infinitesimally increase my odds at increasing rest, recovery, ease and relief.
This also means that my search for a method by which to attain resources (money) is fraught with intensity, hatred, violence and ableism. Most money-making strategies are by and for yang dominant people. This means that these people are literally excreting and projecting out their energetic preferences 24/7.
Remember that yang advances, it moves outward as a tendency. It moves fast, is unresponsive and insensitive, and focuses on aggression, ambition and advancement. It is, quintessentially the “me-first & me-only” mindset. Capitalism is by and for these kinds of people.
Being a yin dominant person means that just trying to listen to these people is draining (yang depletes yin — this is the natural relationship). If one already has chronically depleted and insufficient yin (resources, nutrients, recovery, etc), then everyday life is a struggle because one is never “enough”. One never recovers enough to get above the threshold that the yang dominant society has set up. This is the royal road to cancer and early death.
TLDR— I have not yet cracked the code to survive this onslaught. I am talking about this war from inside the trenches and P.O.W. camps. I am pretty good at researching, but implementing (which requires resources) is necessary to test theories.
This article is less about solutions than it is about understanding the context of reality with as little delusion as possible.
One meta-strategy I am playing with currently is that when I research, I feel my body, use my nondual perception, and ask: “Would I EVER want to be in relationship with this person?”
9 times out of 10 the answer is FUCKING HELL NO.
Now, the second big issue is that this economy works best when you don’t trade your time (labor) for money equally (1:1), but asymmetrically. This means that skilled labor, which takes a long time to learn, such as illustration, craftsmanship, farming, etc. - has a very low ROI. It very rarely creates windfalls.
Creating large influxes of money is the only way to “win” this system of economics. This is called Generating Positive Cash Flow in economics-speak. It means you make more than your expenses and can thus use that “extra” to LEVERAGE.
Capitalism thrives on being able to leverage money/resources at an advantage to gain windfalls. The more cash flow or access to loans, refinancing, etc. that one has, the more one can leverage larger sums of money for assets in the short term, which compound their interest and value over time. This means that whatever seller you engage with must be at some kind of disadvantage due to their personal circumstances, and you, as the buyer, take advantage of that and continually seek to widen that advantage gap.
This is how one literally becomes a capitalist — by accumulating capital in the form of assets: investments, real estate, land ownership, stock valuation, venture capital, etc.
Most people under the oppression of capitalism are not capitalists. They are slave laborers with the dangling carrot of becoming an owner, and the threatening stick of becoming an imprisoned or homeless poor person. Slave labor is still FULLY LEGAL globally via numerous legalese and loopholes. Human trafficking is essentially the underground aka “real” economy. The “dark” economy, the “black” market, etc. Racism and anti-yin language is baked into the very terms we use to describe it.
When we can see the field clearly, then we can examine our values more clearly as they are always in relationship with pour greater environment.
So, some of the options we have available to us as yin dominant people:
Accept being a slave laborer and work as long as one can and die with some level of dignity. This might mean trading time for money and perhaps working on a craft that brings you real meaning while also being in a field or industry of people you actually enjoy being in relationship with.
Try to accrue assets via force (yang) and/or manipulation/networking (yin) — while also being able to withstand and recover from overwhelm.
if we can accrue assets, then we can try to leverage those assets to help other disadvantaged people and create our own islands - micro economies of divergent aid and networks of resources accumulation.
If one has access to real community (likely Indigenous familial ethno-tribal clan affiliations), then one can, as a group, work on multiple methods simultaneously due to the mutual aid that is inherent in these types of communities.
If one does not have a community (like me), then one is forced to take a red shamanic path while also being yin dominant, and this kind of strategy cannot be spoken of publicly. If you want to hear my thoughts on this, the only place I talk about it is in my patreon.
Depending on your Story-Values, your constitution, and your community relations, you may have variations on these options and ideas.
This article was just to help break down a pathway towards death and what acceptance might entail, from my perspective.
Keeping in mind that the basic View of nondual animism is an Unknowability about life/nature (unpredictable in basic nature) as well as knowing that all forms are temporary and thus gaining and losing are also illusory, so that we can better navigate the atrocities set upon us by our deranged kinfolk, and by our own misconduct and derangement.
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For Premium Subs, there is no monthly lecture this August. Lectures resume the first weds morning of September for the Monkey Moon. July’s lecture was a “double” lecture due to the double goat moons.
I am concocting a poll type thing where i decide what to focus on for the next 12 months of lectures. I will still be doing the calendrical ganying, and i will be adding monthly pdfs for premium subs which i began to roll out for July’s lecture.
However, as things continue, I will be adding or focusing on some things depending on my health and what divination tells me. Some of the ideas currently are:
Story, State, Action practices/micro-workshop sections wrapped up into the lectures.
Monthly calendars of daily tongshu so that people can begin to learn how to “read” the data themselves over time.
Also, I am toying around lightly with the ideas of:
Story, State, Action micro-courses (which would be stand-alone courses not included in the monthly fee) that focus on certain themes such as:
The Connection between Decolonization and Detoxing from Addiction.
Story, State, Action for Chronic & Invisible Illness.
Story, State, Action for Creativity.
All of these may or may not happen as my finances and health severely limit my capacity to produce content within a dystopian social environment.
real talk from the trenches. thank you dare.