Various Rhythms
random notes
Adrift in a Sea of Dreams, the longing for what i long for longs for,,, wait, what?
the image which is itself already whole, is beset by feelings of incompleteness, based on decades of social signaling.
the longing, yearning, wanting loop.
Loopmaxxing, Wantmaxxing, Yearnmaxxing.
The end result of a long out-of-sync-ness with nature.
Creativity, without the container(s) of original-naturalness, blooms into addiction.
Addiction is a form of creativity that cannot sate itself.
Yet, the image is already complete. the image is not incomplete. The image, which is the world - the world card in tarot - symbolizes the already inherent integration of all things, inclusive of all things, includes not-thing, maybe-things, once-things, and on and on things.
The fool, the egg, the babe, the open ended zero state, the beginner’s mind, the amnesiac, the being that is moved off into the unknown “future” without a sense of “the past”, therefore is not running from the past. The desire of the fool, idiot, buffoon, clown, jester, is nascent or un-identified. They do not know why they wander, why they risk, why they move — it can be said that “they” do not do this at all. It is the World, latent in the being of the fool which moves, it is Time which moves, and all else is merely swept along accordingly.
It appears as a linear evolution, cause and effect, a journey of struggle, realization, and completion, which seems to continue eternally.
Living biological organisms that are thrust about by the single generative tissue matrix of reality, never separate from that reality, yet from an individualized felt sense perception, generate a sense of separateness.
And all, yearning for some thing which will complete them, somehow, never mind that this does not actually exist.
To be inside the moment, an action which is both an expression and a consumption, that some have labeled a flow state.
Moments begetting moments begetting moments.
To be a moment momenting.
Momentmaxxing.
The body, the mind, the speech actions - all a whole ecosystem.
The pain, the fear, the desire - all a whole ecosystem.
The fool, the wheel of fortune, the world - all a whole ecosystem.
That which hungers, feeds itself.
Can the small self turn its own longing for wholeness back on itself and recognize, feel, perceive that the perception of lack itself is a reflection of the invincible cycle which includes all permutations of reality?
Can the fool practitioner become drunk on sobriety, stuffed on hunger, full of emptiness?
That which you yearn for does not yearn for you - it is a flower reflected in a mirror with “no” “one” to return it’s perfect gaze.
The self cannot complete itself. The self, an apparition of time and space, longs to know itself fully, totally, petulantly striving for complete apprehension.
apprehension
noun
1. anxiety or fear that something bad or unpleasant will happen
Example: he felt sick with apprehension
anxiety
angst
alarm
worry
uneasiness
unease
nervousness
misgiving
disquiet
concern
agitation
restlessness
edginess
fidgetiness
nerves
tension
trepidation
perturbation
consternation
panic
fearfulness
dread
fear
shock
horror
terror
2. understanding; grasp
Example: his first apprehension of such large issues
understanding
grasp
comprehension
realization
recognition
appreciation
discernment
perception
awareness
cognizance
consciousness
penetration
3. the action of arresting someone
Example: they acted with intent to prevent lawful apprehension
arrest
capture
seizure
catching
Isn’t that funny that that word means these things simultaneously?
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