The Vital No - part one (deathpractice dreams 16.1)

New podcast video, new writings, an unknown future

in this episode i will share some of the new stuff, as well as an open inquiry for community, “collaborative learnership” models of play, and overall a kind of heavy cloud of strife that exists in the sky of our lives, my life, and the path ahead.

First up, is the third podcast with Bree Greenberg, which we made into a birthday workshop experience:

this episode was the culmination of a lot of changes my mind and practice have gone through the last few years. I have been through the wringer and there’s no end in sight. Many people who watch me from the outside, from a non-relational place have many false and inaccurate ideas about me, my behaviors and the overall “thing” called deathpractice.

i would like to say, again and again and again., that there can be no singularly trademarked and branded deathpractice, but that also means that a million king babies can corrupt, co-opt and use variations of deathpractice for their own individualistic preferences and personal gains.

there is a fine line between individuation and individualism. the former being a process of differentiation and maturation that each being must go through in order to be a healthy and sane member of the collective. the latter being a ghost ideology about a false way the world works, where special people can be exempt from collective law and reciprocity, where people can and are “exceptional” and can live as special persons who are not beholden to the collective.

there can be no real individualism. there can only be a delusion that outsources pain, domination and violence onto other bodies in order to keep up the appearances that individualism is a real and true thing.

we cannot escape the consequences of our interdependence. to do so is to increase the chaotic whiplashes we experience from attempting escape via loophole thinking, exceptionalism ideology and individualism.

how did we get here? how do we change this constant war of selfish reactions and outsourcing-as-normalized? do we even get to change it or does DEATH change it for us?

these are the terrible questions of my life.

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a lil bit on how we got here

when men eventually overturned the matrifocal NO, they unleashed ten thousand years of king baby-itis. Ghosts upon ghosts, toddlers seeking revenge against being born, blooming into full blown covert and overt narcissists. those ghosts have wrought the sixth extinction, when, for 300,000 years humanity kept themselves in check, kept their preferences, desires and impulses in check, and the climate and ecosystem kept us in check as well.

of course the narcissism tendency is and was always there, under the surface of the human genome - the rapey, manic dominator impulse. the cop-soldier desire. the exceptional ruler ideology. the anti-sharing hoarder preference.

when our grandmothers discovered the true power of the NO, inside of a collectivist coalition, that Real NO, the one enforced via collective counter-dominance and solidarity, it allowed humans to develop into humanity. before this NO, we were not human yet, we only had the potential to be.

but the No became a thorn in the side of our shared karma. the No was divided, attacked, bludgeoned back from the forefront of society. the No went into hiding where it still exists today, as a shadowy serpent, sometimes helpful, sometimes confused and corrupted by individualism, victim consciousness and covert narcissism.

when the No comes out, like in the METOO movement, the BLM movement etc, the rage reaction is intense. all the king babies hear the no and summon forth the violent red tides of ghost blood in their systems. the overt NO of all marginalized and maligned peoples becomes a target for all the capitalist, abuser, dominator king babies to stop, to kill, to force back into quiet servitude of the king baby YES, the king baby WHAT I WANT.

so most people keep their NO in hiding, in secret. Because they feel they cannot withstand the backlash of a public, overt NO. they understand that their No has been wounded, divided from the coalition, divided from sanity and social welfare. they cannot afford the doxxing, the opportunistic parasites of con artists and grifters, the outright 'expendabalizing' of their existence.

almost every issue we see today is a result of this twisted paradigm. you can track it in your own life, your own history, daily.

#deathpractice

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a lil bit on where we going

Formal death practice groups are on a pause so that i can more deeply consider how difficult and pointless it feels to try and do this thing considering the economics and fractured “community” we are in.

that pause has meant starting a private reddit group for people who have bought any of the formal sessions, and a donation based monthly practice session called LUNARIUM.

i am personally at a chasm point where i don’t feel supported enough to make the next step, and don’t feel clear enough to have a sense of what that next step is. i have pieces, fragments and shards of a maybe, but nothing as clear and vivid as the call that came last summer and prompted these first 8 months of content and curriculum building.

i suspect that this body of work i’ve put out will not be fully absorbed and put into practice until long after i am gone, so i am attempting to make sure the material is available after i am gone. that means this year i will do a living will, and whatever else has to be put in place for that to happen.


in other news, the king baby named tada hozumi has continued their abusive and manipulative ways on their patch of the internet and life, and their actions and behaviors mimic daniel foor’s, as well as many other “kind hearted” men who have unresolved domination fetishes as part of their core personality.

this culture really rewards men for being possessed. i have lived it myself and my own feelings of disgust, fear and rage towards that “possession eco-system” is part of why i fight the way i do. men must do the work to exorcise these ghosts from their menu of behavioral options, and some of the ways to do that are to destroy the idea of “manhood” in the “gender concept” software program.
all men must not merely become queer, but remember that this concept called queerness is the finger pointing at the moon of the natural state of beinghood.

the behaviors of so many people (mostly men because it is easier to be rewarded for behaving in certain ways, but domination can be enacted by any gender) must be prevented, because this is a natural tendency based on our collective actions over the centuries. prevention does not mean punishment in a carceral state. in fact, the outsourcing of justice to a soldier caste called police is part of the ongoing dissociation of violence and domination that creates the cycle of abuse and trauma that then lashes out in rage and manipulation. the state doles out punishments and rewards while causing the very economic and material conditions that would lead people to “require” punishments or rewards.

so no, i am not advocating for punishment or expendabilization of these people. but i am advocating for coalitions that are sane and can enforce a collective NO so that we can aim towards harm reduction and preventative models of social governance.

and, i am tired, burnt out, exhausted. this doesn’t mean i’m “giving up”, but it does mean that the society in which we live destroys its own best chances for mutual aid. this also doesn’t mean my practice isn’t “good enough” because that’s some ableist shit and if you think that nondual wisdom is about becoming a superhero you are deluded. the reality is that our society is designed to turn us into agents of the state who act upon other citizens as prey for our individualistic desires.

when we all remember what wholeness is in our own systems, we are more readily able to spot the con artists in our midst. we are also able to model and guide others towards wholeness, through all its many destabilizing ruptures and dark nights of the soul and manic-depressive off-gassings.

remember that being compartmentalized and dishonest (dissociative) is how we become easy targets for manipulation and co-dependent narcissism.

we have an anti-wholeness epidemic in our society that is rewarded with the narrative that we are within our right to dominate others.

the buck has to stop here, with us, in us. this is not about being a cop, internalizing a kind of discriminatory domination. this is about cultivating and nourishing wholeness no matter “the cost”, no matter how difficult. it is about cutting yourself off from narcissistic supply, whether overt or covert, whether abusive or neglectful, and turning towards the feelings you don’t want to feel, and feeling them anyway, and feeling them differently, with different modes of feeling and relating.

#deathpractice

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stay tuned for more… got some interviews others have hosted me on that will be published. animist arts will be announcing new events soon as well.

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