Death Practice Musings 07
updates and ephemera
TLDR: The updated schedule will always be at www.animistarts.art/calendar
The end of this month, weds the 28th, sees Death Practice Group #4, where I talk about view/methods about gods/deities from a nondual, secure attachment perspective (also, non-atheist, non-dogmatic, etc etc). Mature Learners Only Please.
The next day is Deathclown Methods C for regular and playground tier patreon subscribers (if u are a patron the sign up links are there).
In-Person Rhizomatic Choir practice is happening the following Saturday Oct 1 in NE Portland; if you are going to be in portland and might want to attend you can email me for a brief interview.
I will be much harder to reach this fall and winter. I will get around to answering emails and messages eventually, in my own time. The plan for 2023 is to hold more real life events in portland, and re-figure out how to make virtual learning scenarios better, and to hopefully get our art/work out in front of different kinds of groups. As addiction & collapse continue to increase socially, it becomes much more important to develop robust local mutual aid networks that will not deteriorate under stress.
Still collecting bits of art & writing but not able to set aside the time to refine and such. I am in at-home dream retreat/praxis fri 9/23-tues 9/27, then i pop back out to teach the aforementioned stuff from 9/28-1/3, then back into dream retreat for most of october 4th-25th.
some smatterings of things unfinished but enjoyably so:
italo calvino’s invisible cities
my own long overdue work based on the above and mega research into the boom in indie table-top/digital-hybrid rpg’s and worldbuilding tools, including AI games and AI writing generators etc. i am amazed by the online community that has exploded the last ten years.
using canva and learning procreate to do digital art (shout to kate morales and their brilliant work somatic scribing - blessings to our shared mayan ancestors)
fleshing out the deathclown method as i see it, returning to old research in a new way. thanks to Nathaniel Justiniano & Giovanni Fusetti for a great baseline, now i gotta take it my own direction. will eventually drop a ton of biblio & links but for now it’s my damn secrets.
the what is politics? podcast (more on that in the mini journal essay below)
chris newman’s blog and all their socials
Queer Nature is always refreshing: read the words
transitioning to new meds, off the old ones (nystatin) and the new ones havent arrived from india yet. doc says i probably have lyme but the test for that is very expensive and unreliable so we are just dealing with layers of symptoms.
will be officially/legally changing my legal name back to my original birth name after 20 years (more or less) of using the last name sohei. will write more about it later but it’s time and i have no fucking regrets. bless the ancestors who get it.
Huberman Lab podcast is alright!
weckmethod biomechanics based athletic training - even though i have pretty bad inflammatory responses to exercise these days and ive gained too much weight to feel good and my heart rate variability is fucked, this guy & his team are great. a big chunk of what good movement is: efficient, balanced, integrated.
Some other big news that i will wait til next year to talk about publicly, but vaguely, i was accepted into a 4 year medical practitioner program.
Short whatever before i go into retreat
I’m very picky these days with what media I consume. I spend a lot of time searching and vetting: people, their work, and their secret behind the scenes political machinations (thats much harder and much worse work to discover). There are games people play, that I don’t play, and partly because of that I get accused of stealing my work from other people who have book deals, are more famous, etc.
Or how people take a few sentences and pretend to understand the entire view, philosophy and practices behind the work, and then slander me based on their fullashit interpretation.
It’s been a few years of this machiavellian snuff show. I don’t get invited to conferences or podcasts (unless its run by a close colleague), and the #trends are not wisdom in my opinion, it’s just high-dopamine triggering. Energy, and money, flows where attention goes, and this latest stage of late stage capitalism is really a game of capturing-our-attention. (side note: look up the phrase elite capture if youre interested too)
And hey, im not here to yuck anyone’s yum, I just don’t want anyone’s yum in my face anymore.
I’ve spent the last few weeks doing a lot of media hygiene, unsubscribing and unfollowing (and blocking) loads of newsletters, social media profiles, etc. I am at a point where most of what I get sent is noise at best, and worse, propaganda to validate and justify the biases and socio-economic power status of the content creator.
*Maybe about 1 in 50 rabbit holes bears fruit. Like when Peter Michael Bauer of Rewild Portland recommended the What is Politics? Podcast (watched them all, joined their patreon, they went right into my curriculums) - and it was synchronous because the WiP? guy references all the phenomenal work by the Radical Anthropology Group, another hard-to-find but so-worth-it rabbit hole I went down a few months ago.
Basically, the long and the short of it is, I’m not your favorite’s favorite, at all. Rather than list a list, I will let you deal with the ghostly hauntings of all the famous “healers” & “thinkers” who send our culture down dead ends and off cliffs with bunko narratives. As a sick, queer, mixed race artist, I refute all these ableist, capitalist, teen high school drama paradigms of popularity - thinly disguised religio-fascism. ITS BORING. Worse, it is harmful to those who have not yet stabilized their systems, who our society continues to destabilize (children, the acutely oppressed and traumatized, etc). It sucks that people still have to play these games when the realer game is revolution and mutual aid.
Perhaps this sounds like some “get off my lawn” stuff to you. Well, I don’t have a lawn and the whole endeavor is revolting. It’s more that in my maturation/old-ageing, there is less and less capacity to wade through the cultural propaganda as if it is somehow “important”. All I can do is the little bit I can do, which is work on my work (and see how to spread that around without owning anything).
PEACE FOR NOW
