brief update, 2026 & this substack

fire horse year threshold

hi all, this is a brief update on my plans for this blog and such.

2.2.2026 yin fire goat day in a yin earth ox month in a yin wood snake year. written in yin earth rooster hour.

1. The hard truth is that my health has been very difficult in terms of living in a capitalist society. My fatigue and pain have been extreme all year, to the point where i really do not know what i can aspire towards in the future. It’s a day-by-day thing but in reality, i am forcing myself to survive right now, write this letter, when i would rather be laying down in the dark.
   My liver and chong mai (lower spine channel) are very weak, causing me lots of distress. One can do the right things and still fail, i am reminded daily. Of course, that failure is really a failure of cultural conditions. Humans have set this all up. The consequences should not be surprising to anyone, and yet i see that they still seem to be. Shock is yet another clever dissociative mechanism, after all.

2. Plans for any February astrology and fire horse year write ups are on hold for now. I really don’t know what to do as i deal with such an extreme level of exhaustion and likely vitamin D deficiency amongst other compounding factors.

3. a very good horse year write-up can be found here: Into the Heart of the Sun — Tiger Eye Astrology. I’m not sure what I could really add in this moment.

4. I am being interviewed about the world of Red Dust on Patrick Farnsworth’s podcast/substack Last Born in the Wilderness on Thursday (it is a very yang qi environment day, in fact one of the most yang qi available days in this chunk of time). My intention is to follow through on this statement: "Neuro-decolonization in the World of Red Dust: Critically Thinking Beyond Fear & Desire"

5. In a time of hysterical hyperbolic urgency and the frantic panic-stricken dualism of white people, nothing has actually really changed. The reality is still the same reality that has been operating for decades, possibly centuries or millennia. I repeat, nothing much has really shifted. Human delusion is still running the show. Dualistic oppositionalism is still the de facto stance. As long as regular people are still clinging to hope, salvation and silver bullets, nothing ever will change. The shift has to happen in the hearts of each person, relating with Land, Time, Death & Nature in a non-mystical way. Thinking that we can merely reform or replace institutions based in dualistic materialism will never really do anything except kick the can down the street. You have to give up hope but maintain and increase dignity.

6. So, what can really be done? I plan on getting through some of my ideas on that in the interview, try and unpack that more, but realistically it is very simple: The Stories, States and Actions of each person create the atmosphere of humanity. If you haven’t examined what Stories, States & actions you participate in that are addictive, delusional, petty and selfish, then what can you really expect? It’s likely your own identity & colonial values are a big part of the problems you seek to solve outside yourself. Sobriety is painfully uncomfortable and this is why we define it as optional, for “those” “other” people.

ok that’s all i can think about for now. let’s try and all wake up to reality in every moment of emotional intoxication.

screenshot from ig, sorry i cant remember who made this